So a new school year has begun and I thought I’d resume blogging to try to maintain my sanity. A lot has changed since I last posted on my blog. First of all: I am now 8 months without a cigarette. I quit smoking! Yay me. There are days when I still want a cigarette – mostly because I’m driving alone in the car and it’s something to do. I have not had even so much as a puff off a cigarette since I quit on Dec. 31, 2009.
Secondly: This will be my last year at the school where I work. MDS and I have made the decision to move our family back home to Eugene at the end of this year. Every day when I get up to go to work, I know that it’s the last time I’ll get up on that date in this hell-hole.
Finally: I’d say I’m not as depressed as I was when I first moved here. Maybe it’s the news that we’re moving, but I think also I’ve just tried to enjoy the little things more. Moving here was a huge transition, not only because of location, but mostly because I was giving up my “old life” to go back to teaching and it was heartbreaking to give up, even if temporarily, on my dreams. Time heals all wounds, as with anything, and I am feeling better every day about the choice I’ve made to prioritize my family’s needs.
I’m a little afraid of moving home. Mostly because it’s a huge leap of faith that I can find a job before my salary runs out over the summer, but also because I have not seen family or friends for so long and I don’t know exactly how to resume those relationships. I have a lot of time to plan and prepare and save money though, and I know in my heart that it’s the right time and the right choice.
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